Another mark of depression’s weariness is me sitting in my journaling chair, penning these words into the Moleskine, rather than head out in my pj’s with my camera and search for an image of a stone sculpture in rare repose thanks to the early morning mist. The magic will come again, I rationalize. Though no […]
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Depression’s insidiousness can include an almost complete obliteration of one’s perception of life as God and nothing else. Maybe more than almost. This is especially unsettling when that has been one’s default orientation for decades. Over the past thirteen months, my beloved’s internal world has become more and more both numb and agitated––empty and overwhelming––despite
Retirement is an amusing delusion that can be both dangerous and rewarding.  After all, what can we really retire from? Certainly not anything that’s essential, anything we cannot live without. Like bringing all the love we can to here and now. Like managing fear. Like allowing our experience to teach us. Like aligning commitments
Juggling eggs while galloping on a Kentucky Derby winner is what a lot of this year has felt like for me. I don’t wish things were different, but it sure is surreal. There are times when the thought of a brief vacation is very appealing. So when the winter’s firewood arrived, instead of asking our
What happens to your lifelong pursuit of climbing the world’s tallest mountains after, mysteriously, your leg has been amputated and your eyes no longer see? There are certain people who are spiritually mature enough (even though they may not know it or believe it) that they are ready for a challenge that will help them shed
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Imagine that every reasonably sane person who knows you feels you are one of the most joyful, kind, positive, resilient beings they’ve ever met––a touchstone of wisdom.  Imagine having had as your life’s primary goal, since the day you were born so far as you can tell, living in the consciousness of God––to love
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